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Catie
06-13-2011, 07:18 AM
Hello Ladies,

I am new on this site and wanted to thank you all for sharing your stories. You are all an inspiration to me.

Hair loss has affected my life for the past year and nine months. I am in my early twenties and after college decided to move to a different city to start out on my own. I still can’t pin point the trigger, perhaps it was the change in environment (although it’s strange to me because I have moved other times in my life, and this time wasn’t particularly stressful). Within a month though, my hair started falling out like crazy. In the shower. On my pillow. Hundreds of strands on my wide tooth comb. I still vividly remember that day in the shower when it all started.

At first I tried to remain calm. I tried not to think about it and continue on with my life. But as weeks went by and no signs of the hair loss slowing down, I began to panic. Like many of you, I went to doctors and saw hair loss specialists. But no one could explain it. Finally, I decided to get a scalp biopsy and was diagnosed with chronic tellogen effluvium.

The worst part of hair loss, is not the actual hair loss itself – it’s the way it affects your spirit. I know many of you can relate – I lost my confidence, I felt like my future was over. I remember a close childhood friend once told me that I was one of the happiest people he knew – if only he could see me now. I felt a sadness that was deeper than hair; I felt I was losing my identity.

I tried everything from minoxidil to biotin supplements, to rubbing onions in my scalp. But nothing helped. Waking up to hair in my bed and all over the bathroom floor, I would breakdown and come to work with puffy eyes. I moved back home to the support of my parents. I remember crying about it to my dad, telling him this was the worst possible thing that could happen to me. Right when I felt like anything was possible, hair loss took it all away.

That’s when I hit rock bottom, a couple months ago. It hurts to know that I’m not as strong as I think. It hurts that I can’t feel good about what I see in the mirror. But now I can only go but forward. There are many things in my life I am grateful for and I try to remember those things everyday. Although my family and friends are supportive, as you all know, it’s hard sharing this with people who haven’t gone through it personally.

So that’s why I am here. To listen to your stories. To provide support. And to try to find answers.

You are beautiful.

Big hugs to all,

Catie

linzineedshelp
06-13-2011, 08:58 AM
hi catie

it hurts me too taht im not strong enough to deal with this happening to me.why are some people so brave and strong and i just crumble?

thats what i often ask myself.i can certainly relate to what you have as, as will most on this forum.its such a hard hurtfull time.i too feel like hair loss has in some way taken away my future because i dont feel like i can be a happy person anymore.
you are not alone , im sorry you are going through this awful time and i hope you find the answers you need.

i break down like you described whenever i have to wash my hair.i look at what i have left and i love it so much, i want to so desprately keep it but each day that passes shows me that it may not happen.its fading away quickly.that lierally breaks my heart.

i dont mean to reply with such negative comments but its hard not to be when i feel how you described.
i truly hope you find and end to your hair loss or at least fond the answers you need.

love linzi xxx

Catie
06-13-2011, 11:53 AM
Hi Linzi,

Thanks for your note. Don't apologize for the negative comments, these feelings are completely justified. Hair loss is such a hard thing to go through as a woman. I know what you mean about not feeling like a happy person - I haven't felt like myself in months...and it's an awful feeling. But don't give up. You have support on this website, there are thousands of women who feel just the way you do. And are hoping for your recovery. Keep me updated and know you are not alone.

Love,

Catie