annagurl
08-26-2009, 12:22 PM
This is the first time Im writing, posting, anything in regards to my hair loss. I have not seen a doctor to be diagnosed, mainly bc I have no insurance and being a single mother I tend to see my personal issues as non-emergency. It's been almost 7months since I noticed the first bald spot and later on more in diffrent sections. I am very confussed,scared,worried,and very mad. I dont look to blame "someone" but what did I do to deserve this? I do the best to provide for my children, I don't bother anyone I go to church every Sunday, I've been a good daughter, sister, friend, niece, aunt, mother. All my focus has been in educating my children in raising them to be good respectful citizens, I don't know why I've let this become so overwhelming, but everytime I wash my hair and see clumps of hair in my hands and bigger bald spots in my head I just can't take it anymore! I been crying since my shower at 10pm and it's now 4am, I've been up searching and searching for some insight to what's happening to me, and I came across this site, so, I decided it would be ok to atleast belong somewhere or feel like Im not alone in this, but I still cant stop crying and don't know why? Nor how I'm going to get up for work in 3hrs, It's not like I can just give up, I have 3 wonderful beautiful children that depend and rely and need me. I apologize if I come off as selfish but my concern is not for cosmetic reasons my worries are for my children and how if this becomes a serious issue how would I be able to provide for them,although, it has affected the way I see myself, I dont feel attractive. I'm self conscious about people looking at my head.Well I think I wrote more than I intended but I've stopped crying.I was going to delete this after I let off steam but changed my mind.