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Atena
11-02-2009, 06:32 PM
Hi...



I was looking for some information about Spironolactone and I ended up here and it was like I could not move for almost half an hour just reading the posts and trying to figure my feelings out.
Part of me is sad and scared because of everything I read and part of me is amazed and touched because I realized that despite the terrible pain that comes from the hair loss - which in fact is like losing an identity and part of who we are as women - someone transform itself and create this space where we all can come and "hold hands" .

Thank You very much t the person responsible for creating this "place". :>

My story? My hair started falling years ago and even though I went to see doctors and hair professionals, everybody dismissed me because "I had so much hair that I should not worry" and the time went by and my hair loss increased and increased and increased and only when was impossible for professionals to deny I was informed that "this is it" , it's almost impossible to figure what it is the reason behind the hair loss.
I am healthy, 43 years, blood tests and hormone tests done, everything normal. The only problems I had was due to a big change in my life (I moved abroad) I became overweight and it last for over a year until I decided it was enough and started exercising and eating better and got back to my feet, but the hair loss is constant with a lot of itch scalp. Every time I look at the mirror my heart aches. Some days I cry, some days I just stare at myself with dry eyes. I feel lost.
That's the feeling. Most of the time I feel lost.

Thank you all for letting me share my story with you. All of you have your own pain and feelings but also a big heart. Thank you. :>


(PS. Sorry for any mistakes. English it's not my first language)

RedSoxFan
11-02-2009, 10:53 PM
Hi!

Your beautiful memory of your father holding your hand made me cry. What a special image to hold onto. I agree: being with one another makes a huge difference. Finding this space with all the support and compassion helps so much.

This is such a hard thing to experience and so many people don't seem to perceive how it affects our sense of self. You aren't alone- I'm so glad you wrote.

Please keep posting and I'll be thinking of you.

Take care!