I read your post and I thought it was tremendous. I have felt everything that you mention. To date I am a shell of what I once was. I am full of anger, resentment, spite, despair and hopelessness. I often wonder why the reason this happened to me. I was doing good raising my three kids, I was happy or at least happier then I am now. Scalp pain, crappy health and hairloss has stripped me of my life. I go through motions like a robot same thing day in and day out with a husband who is so tired he does not even ask me how I am anymore. Our marriage is just motions, life is chronic pain and unhappiness. How does one get through this when they don't feel well on top of thinning hair and burning scalp? I don't want to hate women with nice hair, women who seem happy, yet happy people piss me off, I want to just scream.