This is my first post and I really just wanted to complain to someone who can understand. No one that I know with the exception of my mother knows what it's like to loose your hair and what a huge impact it has on your self esteem or your whole life. I started loosing my hair at around 17 years old but it didn't matter because I had so much and slowly off and on over the years I pretty much have nothing left. It has caused depression and anger, and I didn't even know where all that stemmed from. I notice especially now when someone is talking to me they talk to be like a large breasted woman, only they are staring at my head with no hair on it. I am a very outgoing person with a great job, on the intelligent side - I have 3 great kids. Life for me should be ok, but I feel like crap. I HATE what I look like and I especially hate looking in the mirror. I don't like to go out in the sunshine for fear of what ppl will say or think and I don't like to go out at night for fear of flouescant lighting. I have ruined a couple of great relationships because of my anger I guess towards life, I take it out on the people close to me. That's not who I am though, I'm not an angry bitter person inside. Maybe I don't love myself and therefore I don't think anyone else should love me either. Who know's, I hope that I can either find peace with myself or a cure for the horridness. Maybe someday both.