Hi well i only joined today so this is pretty scary but I'm just feeling so depressed and lost so here goes and this is going to be pretty long... My name is thu, I am 17 years old and I live in London. My hair loss probably started when I was about 14 when i started to notice a difference in texture of my hair, slowly it got worse and worse and now here I am still seaching for hope and for answers. i feel so alone in this world right now and nobody understands how i feel, so I'm hoping this community will help. I understand what people with hair loss are going through, so if anyone needs any support I will be there for you no matter what! I used to be such a happy person and I loved life, but now I constantly go through stages of depression because of my hair, I am so unbelievably insecure and i find it ahrd to concentrate because I always think about my hair. I overthink things so much now and I am so much less confident because my hair really affects me. I often spend days sitting there analysing what I've done wrong in my life to make God punish me and make me lose my hair. I know it all sounds so dramatic and crazy but I'm only 17 and everyone else around me has such beautiful hair. It just honestly kills me inside that my hair is like this and it's the last thing I need to deal with right now when I have exams and have to apply for university. No one seems to get what I am going through, my mum just shouts at me and says its all fine and brushes it under the carpet, or she comments on how i dont eat, but I do eat very regulary and properly. My dad doesnt really seem to care that much, or if he does he doesnt do anything. My brother is just horrible about and i hate telling him because if we have a fight he'll bring it up and make me feel horrible about myself. My friends jsut say my hair is fine, but they dont understand at all how hard it is I really dont know what to do anymore, my hair loss has slowed down but i dont seem to have much growth and the new hairs are absolutely tiny and thin, my hair strands themselves used to thick, but are now very fine and thin. I've been to the docotor so many times, blood tests iron and thyroid pretty much everythiung checked and normal (i kinda wish it hadnt been because then at least id know what was causing it right!) they basically ended up saying that there was nothing they could do themselves and it must be because my hair is going through a phase or a cycle, but this so called cycle has been going on for over 3 years now and its barely getting better so it cant be that!!! can it...? My dad has male pattern baldness but he's 53 and I inherit hair from my mum and she has really good hair especially when she was my age, so i dont think its hereditary but im not ruling it out... erm I do get VERY VERY VERY stressed though over everything and the thought of my stress being bad for my hair makes me more stressed so its like a vicious cirlce basically, but to be fair i;ve always been a stressy person and its only recently taking its toll. I dont know how to control my stress...plus i;ve been having so many exams and uni applicaations and I want to do medicine and my school is very intense so yeah stress is VERY high for me..... i can bsically see my scalp now because my hair is so thin all over (but my eyebrows and eyelashes are thank god okay!) I hate being in flash pictures or in the sun in the fear my bald patches and thinning will show. When people comment on it they dont realise the damage theyve done, or how long it has taken you to get back to that normal stage when you're okay with it, and then they say something and you come crashing down to square one again. i literally have no one to talk to about this so i really really really would love some supprot, I have exams and uni applications soon so this is the last thing i want to think about but i still do every second of the day. I hate my face and hair and the way i look and my self esteem is bascially zero, i am so antisocial because im scared people wont want to tlak to me because i am ugly and balding I spend so much time crying about this, but i am slowly i think getting a bit better... So i dont know whats causing the hair thinning at all.... Please someone help me and tell me what to do, i feel so alone and I really need someone's support right now!!!! Everyones who's actaully read all of this and are here now thank you sooooo much. seriously it means everything that you actualyl took your time out to read this so thank you and ily! Thank you ladies, love you all!