I love this site. It's so good to hear that what I'm thinking and feeling is already voiced and shared by so many women before me. Thank you! Here's the thing - I'm very new to this as I have only started to notice the thinning on top of my head within the last two months. I dread taking a shower and seeing my hair on my hands. Somehow I want to save them so that I can glue them back on!! Sadly, I let them go and watch them flow freely with the water down the drain. Yesterday, I was watching a previous posting of a MTV real life story of Rebecca - a college girl who has alopecia. I was so moved by it that I couldn't help myself, but I started to cry. When I was able to calm down, I turned towards my husband (he didn't know what I was watching since I was wearing headphones and I also have a cold; hence the sniffles) and said to him, "I wonder if I could cut my hair really short like yours. You know, when I'm really balding?" He then says to me, "We're still talking about this?" He says this while still playing his video game on his computer. For some reason, I got so pissed off. I couldn't believe what he just said. Ladies, don't get me wrong about my husband, he's a great guy, wonderful father, and he loves me dearly. However, I realized at that moment, I don't think I can talk to my husband again about this problem of mine and I just felt so heartbroken. He is supposed to be my rock and my support. But when he said "We're still talking about this?", I felt betrayed. Am I crazy? Am I overreacting? I cried and told him to not worry; that I won't talk to him about it anymore. Heartbroken. That's all. He tried to talk to me afterwards, but I was just so upset. He said that he doesn't see any balding on my head and that I'm thinking too much about it. He doesn't care about me losing my hair because he'll love me no matter what; that if I lose my hair, I could just wear a wig if I want. Are you kidding me? He just doesn't get it. Now after thinking about this overnight and pretty much most of today, I realized what got me so mad. He doesn't understand that this issue of mine, is not about him. It's about me. That when I asked him about "cutting my hair" like him, I was really wanting him to say something along the lines of "sure honey, I think you'll look great no matter what." Men! I know, I know. I need to tell him this revelation of mine. Emotional roller coaster. That's what I'm on right now. I just wish I wasn't tall enough to get on the ride. Thanks for listening.