It's the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about when I go to bed. My hair began shedding after a few years of poor nutrition. I did some crash dieting in high school and lost a substantial amount of weight. Naturally, my hair was affected in the aftermath. However, as I started eating healthier, putting the weight back on that I had lost, my hair continued to shed. A year later, my hair is still shedding. I never had thick hair, but now it's incredibly thin. I started college this past year with a hopeful foot forward. My hair was in a terrible shedding phase, and I was turning around my eating habits, eating ambitious amounts of meat and taking lots of vitamins. My Christmas, my hair was much better. Not where it had been when I was younger, but still better. Then things took a turn for the worst. Despite my continued good eating habits, my hair began to shed again. It felt like my hair was straw, sitting on top of my head. A simple turn made hairs fall. So, I got blood work drawn and was referred to a plethora of different doctors. My thyroid was slightly low, so my endocrinologist put me on Synthroid which, surprise, made my hair even worse. Now I am on Spironolactone, which has made little change. It's not that I'm hopeless; I literally pounce on any change or possibility for change. It's just difficult, having a completely normal life, then being completely submissive to what my hair does. I have become more introverted and started seeing a counselour. I love myself, but I can't help but feel worthless at my body's betrayal. Why me?